Sobriety is my competitive edge. It's true. Keeps me playing offense. Rather than defense.
Maybe what I'm learning is that I truly am an alcoholic? I wanted that to not be the case. I tried. Again. And failed. Again.
I don't want it anymore. I've lived long enough sober to realize the advantage it gives me.
So that's it for now. I didn't drink today. And I won't tomorrow.