The days are just packed.

I spent no less than twelve hours on homework today. I will be so relieved when I am finally done with school. 

And I downloaded a new writing app for my computer! Super stoked to try it out. 

I'm thinking, once I graduate in May, perhaps I will really get serious about writing something worth reading. 

Hmm. 

Got the app!

Maybe now this will become a more frequent thing?? Hope so. 

Sobriety is my competitive edge. It's true. Keeps me playing offense. Rather than defense. 

Maybe what I'm learning is that I truly am an alcoholic? I wanted that to not be the case. I tried. Again. And failed. Again. 

I don't want it anymore. I've lived long enough sober to realize the advantage it gives me. 

So that's it for now. I didn't drink today. And I won't tomorrow. 

It's that time again.

Earlier this year, I quit drinking.  My life changed for the better after doing so.  Exponentially.  I mean, it turned around completely.  And sometimes, I just need to remind myself of that fact.  You know, maybe someday I will be able to live my life responsibly, while enjoying a drink every now and then.  Right now isn't that time, though.  And just need to remember that.  That's it.  I don't miss drinking.  But every now and then, I have to tell myself that me not drinking is much better than me drinking.  

So with that out of the way (it's been bugging me a bit!) let's talk about December. I've made a bet with a friend at work.  I'm going sugar-free and grain-free for the next 24 days.  Maybe longer, who knows?  I want to add in an exercise component, too.  Especially since I've been pretty much sedentary since returning to school this fall.  Time to start actually acting like I'm going to run a half marathon in six months.  

I used the not drinking thing as an excuse to lose focus on.. well, everything but not drinking.  And I really shouldn't say it was an excuse.  It was with good reason.  I needed to focus on that.  But now I'm to the point where I don't need to think about that part of my life 24/7.  I can begin to focus on some of my other goals.  Like fitness and health.  And, you know, finishing school with decent grades.  

So uh... Yeah, I'm going to use the next 24 days to get on track.  What's that they say about creating habits?  21 days, right?  Yeah, who knows about that.  But it's worth a try, right?  If I can go 300 days without drinking, I can definitely make smart, healthy decisions for the next three weeks, right?

Right.

Onward.